from someone: I was browsing the sent items of my old email when I saw this email.. It was sent to the person I can't get over with up until now. "..all this months di ko lam ang ngyari... i don't know everything until its too late.. i'd fallen for you.. i know this shud not be happening.. this is wrong... i thought i cud withstand all the challenges but i'm tired i cant continue. there are many reasons why. we're in the same sex. ur rich. ur younger than me. etc.. Auko kasing masaktan. all this days i'm a captive of my own fear. i don know what is it. maybe fear of losing you. maybe the mere fact that i am poor ambitious human. maybe i'm a gay. ewan!!!!!! nguguluhan ako.... nobody can't understand me.. im ashame of myself. im ashame of everything. i told myself that nothing will change but iwas wrong. the fact that gives me pain... i shud face this thing. i shud face the fact that losing you is near...dimo man sbhn. im here infront of the computer crying beside w/ other pipol i don know. sabi ko dati pag ung time na ssbihin mo sakin ang gudbye, ok lng. i wud let you go. pero ang isa palang ka2lad kong gago. hindi pla kaya.. i want you to stay with me. i know hindi pdeng mangyari yun... pero sana nga... msakit plang mwala ang taong minahal mo na. can u stay??? stay pls...stay with me 4 a while until... im doomed.." Right after reading it, I felt so stupid. I felt so brave on that moment and yet so coward. I fucked up.. Hushh. enough of this.. everytime I bring back this memories, I became vulnerable... How I wish I am Damon that could shut off all the emotions that could hinder me. up until now, all i want is to talk to you. i'm sorry if i'm so downe..
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